My heart breaks for you. This isn’t what you wanted or what I wanted. And it is completely out of our hands. Let me hold you, love. Let me hold you while you cry, while you curse, while you run worries around your head so much that you don’t know where to begin with how to fix what you think is broken.
But we are not broken, love.
You are not broken.
I am here for you and with you, through the thick and through the thin, through the hard times and the good times, through the shitty times and the joyous times. I love you, and that is what matters. I love you through our troubles, through our failures, through our struggles, through every moment of this life together.
Take a breath. We’ll be better than okay.
I hope you’re still at the point where venting will help. Vent away, babe. I’m here to listen to you complain about whatever. If you’re not at that point anymore, if you’re being just talking it out, then I’ll snuggle with you, I’ll cuddle with you, I’ll buy you ice cream and watch you play mindless video games that involve a ton of violence.
I just want to make you feel better. I want to make you feel like you’re worth it. I want to make you feel as though someone is always there for you, that you’re emotions are exactly what they are, emotions and you’re entitled to them. You’re allowed to be upset with whatever, you’re allowed to have a bad day here and there, you’ll allowed to feel crappy sometimes. It’s a natural part of life and living.
But I don’t want you to stay there. I want you to get better and to feel better. I want you to move on and toward something else, something that’s better. I want you to feel good about yourself and who you are as a person, the person I love and adore so much.
So if you’re having a bad day, remember tomorrow is a new day, and tomorrow is a brilliant day. When the sun rises in the east, the slate has been wiped clean, and your new day can begin.
You remember when we first met? I was sitting against the cement wall at Fireside Pies, waiting for you because you were late. Who knew that would be something I should remember about you for the future? Anyway, do you remember it? When I was on the phone talking to Katherine and you were walking up to me in sandals and a button down? Who would have thought that we would be where we are today?
I mean, I never expected to fall so deeply in love with you. I never thought I was capable of such a deep emotion, but you pulled it right out of me. You dragged it out from somewhere, I’ve no idea where, but you found it. I never thought I would fall in love with you. I never thought I would be making a life with you in the middle of nowhere either.
I just never thought of the future quite like the way I do now until I met you. And our future is going to be fantastic, babe. I can’t wait to experience it with you.